I am a rude person. I don’t say hello to everyone sitting in a room when I enter it. When I’m making a “snack” run at work, I don’t ask anyone else if they want anything because I don’t want to be bothered. I don’t introduce my friends when I take them to a party. I am just plain rude.
I am not rude just because I am a mean or inconsiderate person. My rudeness stems from severe shyness. I am debilitatingly shy in social situations. I opt just not to say anything to avoid talking to people. That’s why I don’t ask my co workers if they want anything when I am going to get a snack. It’s just easier to say nothing at all.
I am also anti-social. Socializing just takes up too much emotional energy. I don’t know if people can understand unless they experience the problem first hand. Talking to people in any setting stirs up emotions and I am easily embarassed so I avoid people as much as possible. I don’t want to be rude and I don’t want to be shy.
I think my final option is to medicate. The drug paxil claims to help people overcome social anxiety. I am going to talk to my physician and request the medication and I will let you know what happens.
